Final Week !

holaaa eberibadi ! I'm in lab now ! tunggu class habis . Tadi dah present for Graphic haa . This is my final week here at Lendu for Semester 4 ! ALERT ALERT ! FINAL IS COMINGGGGGGG !  I've lot to share actually but takde masa haa ! Goodluck for your final exam to all UiTM Students ! :D

I'm Sorry For Hurting You

Im sorry for hurting you,
I’m sorry for making you cry,
I’m sorry I didn’t realise why,
I’m sorry for not understanding you new right,
I’m sorry for all those fights,
I’m sorry for not listening,
I’m sorry for not trying,
I’m sorry I failed you,
I’m sorry I didn’t try,
I’m sorry for not caring,
I’m sorry for not being there,
I’m sorry for not supporting you,
I’m sorry I really am,
I’m sorry i let somebody get closer too you,
I’m sorry for fading away,
I’m sorry I didn’t chase you,
I’m sorry you swayed away,
I’m sorry it was too late,
I’m sorry I tried again,
I’m sorry I cried all night,
I’m sorry I never found you,
I’m sorry your hearts lost,
I’m sorry I couldn’t cure it,
I’m sorry but i’ll try now,
I’m sorry if its too late,
I’m sorry but I have to try,
I’m sorry for all the things that I just flew by,
I’m sorry for being so mad,
I’m sorry for being so down,
I’m sorry for not understanding you when I wasn’t even around,
I’m sorry for missing countless nights,
I’m sorry for missing you out the puzzle,
I’m sorry for underestimating you,
I’m sorry I let you fall that time,
I’m sorry for my swaying emotions,
I’m sorry for losing your heart,
I’m sorry i wish things where Ok,
I’m sorry for being a idiot,
I’m sorry but things where meant too be,
and I wont give up thats why,
I need you, you are my everything,
I’d do anything too make you happy if u just trust me.
I LOVE YOU NOR AIMI NABILLA <3

Happy Birthday Amirul Aswad ! Again ! :D HAHA

hello geng ! still entry pasal birthday . tapi version dan pelakon dia lain pulak haha . after habis main bola dekat Perlis , me has joined my friends trip ke JB ! Dorang buat jalan2 cari makan aka bercuti lah . Malam tu jalan dekat Danga Bay , ahhhh best ! ade funfair , ade basikal unik , ade kedai makan yg ade live band ! dah puas main semua , semua tampak penat . aku ajak lah dorang ni balik . tp diorng ni buat leceh buat lembap . masa tu dah pukul 1 lebih . semua penat , tapi liat nak balik , tak faham aku . sekali Sarah bunyi ajak balik . yes ! dapat pun balik ! tibe2 nampak Gmart minum dgn awek dia kat cafe ni . aduh sumpah spoilt ! terpaksa pula singgah masuk minum . dia minum kat kedai paling style kat situ , kedai yg ada live band tu . langkah je kaki aku masuk dalam cafe tu , live band tu nyanyi lagu happy birthday ! aku tenang je lah , sebab tak expect utk aku pun . dah lambat seminggu kot ! belated gila babi dah haha . so aku masuk , duduk diam kat meja . tapi semua orang pandang aku . aku ingat birthday orang lain . live band tu pun nyanyi tak mention nama aku . just happy birthday happy birthday je to you je . haha . tibe2 Im datang bawak cake ke arah aku , so aku dah boleh rasa dah utk aku . hehe . aku terharu , tp disebabkan terlalu penat , tak larat nk touching . so biasa2 je. haha sorry geng ! really appreciate it ! lepas tiup kek , makan sesuap dua . bungkus balik kek masuk kotak , and pergi kat kereta . nampak ade orang sambut birthday jugak . lelaki . dia kena berdiri tak berbaju , kawan2 dia baling telur and tepung . aku gelak jelah haha . sekali Fayen datang dari belakang , taburkan tepung ! fuckkkkk ! ade jugak utk aku permainan kotor ni ? haaa ! redha jelah . lepas tu habis semua bertepung , balik apartment semua cabut baju 1 kereta . orang tengok dah macam apa je haha . btw , thanks guys ! you're the best ! me love you all so much ! <3

Happy Birthday Amirul Aswad =')

Fayen dah mula game kotor ni =,=

Dah macam apa dah ! HAHA

Thanks everyone ! <3

Happy Birthday Amirul Aswad ! :D

Hello everybodayh ! I'm officially 20 ! hehe . on 19th May tapi lambat update blog . haaa so me wanna share  sedikit sebanyak apa yang terjadi di malam hari lahir . Fyi , I'm at Perlis playing football for my campus UiTM Melaka for Liga Ipt . Me is so sad because can't celebrate my birthday with my girlfriend and my besties . While waiting for 12 o'clock untuk bergayut dengan si gf , melayan lah budak2 ni melawak . Area 12 balik bilik , then tetibe sorang datang tutup lampu , and then kek menyusul . haha . dengan lilin bagai . Sumpah unexpected ! sebab kitaorg sebok fokus game esok . semua pun patut tidur awal . tak sangka sweet jugak budak2 bola ni haha . tak sangka dia orang tahu d.o.b aku . Tak tahu lah dorang perasan ke tak aku menangis sebab terharu . haha tapi sial je dorang bagi kek BARBIE !!!!!! Menganjing aku lah tu ! haha mentang2 fon aku , braces aku , berus gigi aku semua pink ! haha btw thanks guys ! thanks a lot UiTM FC MELAKA !

This is my birthday cake . HAHA Barbie uols !

*sorry ade error nak upload video dia*

I've Been Dumped and I'm in Pain - Part 5

Dalam seminggu terakhir ni , gf saya semakin pelik dan sedar akan perubahan saya . Saya terus yakinkan gf sy yg sy hanya mencintai dia . dan semuanya kelihatan okay . Sehinggalah semalam , si MH ni ajak saya keluar memandangkan esok hari last saya di Kuantan , dia cakap takpelah dia sakit hati sy ada gf or whatever , as long dia nak spend msa yg tinggal . saya pun cakap ok . tp tak janji . tiba2 gf sy pun ajak keluar . Ofkos la saya plih gf sy . Saya dgn gf pun keluar lah pergi Mall . Jumpa kawan MH yg kwn dgn sy jgak tu , dia kerja kat Mall tu . saya cakap la saya ada masalah . lepas tu kawan tu cakap stop BBM , stop cntc . dia sound saya ! saya pun macam terbukak mata lepas kena sound . so saya nekad nak date dulu , malam nanti balik saya nk trus terang dgn MH tu , tapiiiiii masa tak menyebelahi saya ! Saya dan gf ke kedai makan dan memesan makanan , saya hairan kenapa gf saya ke toilet lama sangat . saya call tak angkat . saya call kawan td tu mntak tolong ke toilet cari gf saya , dia cakap takde . Tiba-tiba gf saya masuk ke dalam kedai makan tu bersama MH . bagaikan mimipi ! alangkah terkejutnya jantung saya , terjatuh tersembam ke dasar perut . Saya dah rasa menda ni akan jadi , sebab tak sedap hati . Saya act cool , dan lepas kena bash dgn ayat pedas dr gf , say decided nak blah dr kdai makan tu sebab benci tgk muka MH tu ! Dan saya tak boleh lari kemana sebab wallet saya dalam handbag gf saya . So dia ajak berbincang bertiga . saya memilih untuk berbincang dalam kereta . Sepanjang perbincangan , hanya gf saya dan saya sahaja yg menangis . tapi MH tenang main her Blackberry mcm takde pape berlaku . Saya cuba explain kat gf saya , but I know it will too hard for her to accept this . I talked to MH and I seems blame her for this , she acts like nothing happened and me the one who starts all this ! Macam saya yang ngorat dia . Saya paling tak boleh terima dia reka cerita . Dia cakap kat gf sy , dia tu Ex saya la . saya cerita kat dia yg saya dah break la . padahal sy selalu ckp sy dah ada gf ! Then hantar MH tu kat kawan2 dia balik kat Mall , my gf send me back home . Both of us crying . I know I can't gain her trust towards me again . She's ask for break up after 3 years 3 months 3 weeks and 3 days in relation . I'll never let her go , but too hard to get her back . I'm asking for her forgiveness and I'm ask some people too help me in this . Selama ni BBM saya dgn MH , dia munchscreen dan send dekat gf saya . Late night yesterday and this morning , I've text MH supaya bertanggungjawab atas apa berlaku . ternyata MH yg saya kenal sangat lain . Saya tanya dia 'apa salah sy ? awk sunyi , saya teman , awk sakit , sy tolong , awk takde kawan , sy jd kawan awak , awak nak love , saya bg . saya tipu gf sy sbb awak . awk yg mulakan semua ni ! sampai hatia awk rosakkan relation sy. saya nk awk tanggungjawab ! ' dan dia membalas 'Ala ayat tu semua tak betul . whatever i've said , none of it were true . Tak kisahlah nak cakap i jahat ke apa , like i care ? i've got nothing  to do with you anymore and i never knew you amirul aswad . don't think you're special ' . Sumpah terduduk lepas baca msg ni . Now I'm still in process to get my gf back . The moral of the story is , jangan mudah percaya orang yg baru kenal , and sometimes we have too be selfish . Jangan asyik fikir perasaan orang . Now , I'm realize that I'm losing my moon while counting stars . Saya mengaku saya salah sebab saya melayan dan saya terima jika si gf ingin meninggalkan saya . Saya terima hukuman saya . Cuma saya tak boleh terima sebab ada cerita tokok tambah dari pihak MH  yang saya rasakan sangat tidak adil untuk saya ! I've been dumped and I'm in pain ! Dan saya sedikit ralat sebab malam semalam patutnya saya nk end up dah dgn MH , tapi ptg tu dah jd mcm ni . Lambat sikit je . Takpela , everything happen for a reasons . Si gf pun ade cakap , If we were meant together , it will be . Now saya tengah cuba dapatkan gf saya balik . Sumpah menyesal kenal perempuan macam tu . Takpe , ada hikmah . saya tak berdendam , karma akan balas . May God Bless you haters ! Doakan saya ya ? terima kasih :)  and lastly , I LOVE YOU NOR AIMI NABILLA ! No one can seperate us . I'm so sorry ='(

I've Been Dumped and I'm in Pain - Part 4

Satu petang tu , kami keluar dan mahu pulang pada waktu Maghrib . Tetiba dia memberhentikan kereta dan diam . Dia meluahkan perasaannya terhadap saya dan menangis . Dia mahukan keadilan . Dia menyuruh saya memilih dia ataupun gf saya yg sudah 3 tahun . Saya terdiam dan terkedu . Dalam hati memang saya pilih gf saya . Tapi takkan saya nak cakap kat dia . Saya taknak melukakan hati dia and menyakiti dia . Jadi saya berdiam . Dan sekali lagi , pada malam itu , dia menghantar ini ' say what you want , you don't know me . and you have no idea how life treat me before . every night Aswad every night i cry myself to sleep , life is hard . too hard with me . I cuba ignored the facts i'm just a girl yg akan rosakkan hubungan org , org ktiga dlm hubungan tu . I cuba x fkir semua tu . siapa i sebenarnya ? you ingat i tak sedih ? it hurts so bad aswad everytime it crossed my mind . i'm not making you feel bad or what tp i ada perasaan . I pun ada rasa jealous . i perempuan . takde perempuan yg suka org yg dia sayang share dgn perempuan lain . sebab tu i suruh u decide which you want . sampai bila nak mcm ni ? this is hurt so much because i can't have you for my own but i have to watch you love the other girl , how i wish that was me ' . Saya terus menyatakan yg saya sudah ade gf . tp saya tak sampai hati nak tolak dia sebab bg saya , dia baik sangat . dia dah banyak tolong saya . Dia selalu menyatakan dia cemburu bila saya tweet i love you dkat gf saya . jeles bila saya update sttus bbm . kemudian one day , sy tipu dia saya cakap saya nak balik melaka , hakikatnya tidak ! saya cuma tidak mahu mendekatkan diri dengan dia lagi . Dalam minggu lepas , saya terus menjauhkan diri . Dia cakap saya dah lain , dia blame saya lepas tangan . Saya dah terang sy dah ada gf , tp dia cakap takpe , dia sanggup sakit as long saya happy . kira macam dia nak telan jugak la pahit sy ada gf tu as long dia dapat love saya jugak . saya pun okay lah , saya just cuba yg terbaik utk tanak sakitkan hati dia yg bg saya dia tu sangat baik , jujur , sweet , bertanggungjawab semua .

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I've Been Dumped and I'm in Pain - Part 3

Lepas tragedi rumah tu , dia sangat say sorry kat saya . saya pun takde mood actually . tp kesungguhan dia say sorry tu buat saya tahu dia seorang yg bertanggungjawab . Lpas tu kami keluar dan mengambil gambar bersama . ade lelaki BBM dia tnya siapa saya ? then dia jawab boyfriend and minggu dpn nak tunang . Masa nak balik rumah , kami mcm bergaduh sikit . Dan semuanya bermula apabila dia menghantar ini kepada saya ' maybe its my fault . all of this . i sangat sensitive bila sakit . but when semua ni happened , i rasa sgt down . sebab tade siapa cares for me . we had so much fun daytime tadi but jadi mcm ni pula . i sayang you . i feels so happy sebab you ambil berat pasal i deeply . all i ever wanted is this . someone who will always be there all the time eventhough how bad my condition are . all i need is attention . i suka bila you marah i tak take care , i mencarut and so on . and i even love more when you stares at me . its like im the only best view you ever had . i love to be treated like a princess . i love whenever you gets pissed of with my jokes , i love to make you smile just by looking at me . things are better when you're around . and when we argue over something stupid , it makes me even happier to see how annoyed you are because of me . how wonderful it is when two people really can connect to each other without forcing , it is so beautiful . thank you so much for every single smile , laughed , thoughts , words , cares you gave me . i love you <3 ' Terkedu dan tersentak saya dapat menda ni . Hari-hari esoknya kami terus keluar sebab saya kat sini tak lama , sebab cuti sem dalam 2 bulan je . jadi nk spend masa lah . Dan sampailah saya dapat ini pula ' meloveyousomuch to tell . day with you never been such a waste for me . you bring out the happiness to me . without you , there's no joy in my life . you're the best gift i've ever had . whatever shit happened to us , as long its involved you together would be a greatest thing for me . we've been through up and down still my love for you never less in fact more and more every seconds . i've seen  the best side of you m that's to me are the most magical spell that no one ever knew . i've wrote down everything  i felt for you and how different you are to me . hope i could make you smile by reading what my heart is nagging about you . i'm so sorry for any single things i've caused , how hurt you are or how fucked up you've felt because of me . but one thing for sure , you're mine forever . ILOVEYOUSOMUCH till my last breathe AMIRUL ASWAD <3 ' hmm . Saya terus cair dgn bait-bait kata darinya sehingga membuat saya lupa yang saya mempunya gf .

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